23 Weeks

And 4 days.  I have a hard time taking pictures and writing a post in the same day, and this week there was a big gap between the two because I went to visit family and did absolutely no blog writing for 3 days.  It was kind of nice not to have my laptop while I was away.  I could have read my Google Reader on the iPad, but I didn’t.  I just hung out with some of my favorite people.  It was great to take a break from the computer that I spend too much time with during a normal week.  The bad part is that now I have 450 items in my Reader, so I am scared to open it…

I’m feeling good—exceptionally better than last week when Carson and I suffered through what Ben had the week before.  Whatever is going around is completely and utterly miserable.  One of the downsides to pregnancy is not being able to take the medications you would normally.  I was getting probably 4 hours of sleep a night since my cough kept waking me every hour or so.  Carson fared better in the sleep department, but was still not his happy self.  We are both almost back to normal, which is a very good thing.  Today I feel pretty close to clear-headed.  I’ve been having trouble thinking, remembering things and forming complete sentences.  I think I have been a hard person to live with.  Ben will be happy to know that I remembered to get AA batteries and trail mix at the store today!  I am so very glad to be better.

Baby girl will be here in a little less than 4 months now, and that makes me both very excited and also anxious.  We are still in our rent house without much happening with our house in Amarillo.  I’ve been imagining the perfect scenario in which we sell our house in Amarillo with no hassle or delay, find the perfect house to buy here with a quick closing and move in with plenty of time to spare to prepare for baby girl.  However, I’m starting to think more seriously about how I’m going to fit 2 kids in our current house.  As it is our garage is full of stuff from the other house and we don’t have a whole lot of extra space to work with inside.  Not that God isn’t powerful enough to create my dream scenario this late in the game—He is powerful enough to do anything.  I’m just preparing for the scenario in which God says, “Your plan just isn’t what’s best.  I have other perfect plans that will be much better than what you’ve conjured up.”  I still pray for the house to sell.  It will be a huge weight lifted for our family.

So I’ve been spending a lot of time looking at small space living and thinking more and more about sending another load of our unnecessary stuff to Goodwill.  Maybe it’s time to give away those skinny jeans that aren’t ever going to fit over my thighs again!   We’ll have to change the office/guest room into a nursery and decide what stays and what goes in there. The thought of that makes me a little queasy.  Getting started on a big project is always hard for me.  Everything looks (and is) worse for a while before it gets better, so I procrastinate on the getting started part.  I think there is a part of me that hopes it will magically fix itself…that happens, right?