{"id":1251,"date":"2013-02-08T21:20:18","date_gmt":"2013-02-09T03:20:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/babyz.hottie-biscotti.com\/?p=1251"},"modified":"2013-02-08T21:20:18","modified_gmt":"2013-02-09T03:20:18","slug":"39365","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.hottie-biscotti.com\/babyz\/2013\/02\/08\/39365\/","title":{"rendered":"39\/365"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i1.wp.com\/babyz.hottie-biscotti.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/02\/2-8-13.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-1252\" alt=\"2-8-13\" src=\"https:\/\/i1.wp.com\/babyz.hottie-biscotti.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/02\/2-8-13.jpg?resize=596%2C598\" width=\"596\" height=\"598\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i2.wp.com\/www.hottie-biscotti.com\/babyz\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/02\/2-8-13.jpg?w=596 596w, https:\/\/i2.wp.com\/www.hottie-biscotti.com\/babyz\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/02\/2-8-13.jpg?resize=150%2C150 150w, https:\/\/i2.wp.com\/www.hottie-biscotti.com\/babyz\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/02\/2-8-13.jpg?resize=298%2C300 298w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 596px) 100vw, 596px\" data-recalc-dims=\"1\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em>Our Little Mystery<\/em><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">I do not and feel like I never will understand this baby. \u00a0Today was ridiculous. \u00a0Babies thrive on routine, right? \u00a0Not this one. \u00a0I try to do the same things and keep a fairly consistent schedule every day. \u00a0Some days she sleeps, some days she doesn&#8217;t. \u00a0Today she didn&#8217;t. \u00a0I lost it today. \u00a0And not because it was the worst day I&#8217;ve ever experienced, but because I am exhausted. \u00a0You know when you&#8217;ve been holding it together for so long that when it all comes crashing down it crashes hard? \u00a0That was today. \u00a0Every single part of my body is done. \u00a0The really rotten part is that I can&#8217;t be done. \u00a0I have to get up and do it all again tomorrow. \u00a0Thankfully I won&#8217;t be alone. \u00a0I am so glad it&#8217;s the weekend.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">I&#8217;m sure it won&#8217;t seem so bleak tomorrow, but I sure have a bad attitude about my life. \u00a0Which is really good. \u00a0I&#8217;m not saying I have a bad life. \u00a0I am just saying that this period of it is really hard on me. \u00a0One minute I am fine. \u00a0I know it&#8217;s only temporary. \u00a0And a minute later and I am crying in a heap on the floor. \u00a0I look back on parts of today and wish I had them on video because I know I would laugh at myself. \u00a0Sometimes there is just nothing left to do but cry. \u00a0And crying really loud when no one is around is very therapeutic. \u00a0Crying so loud that you make your 2 year old start to cry is probably not the best. \u00a0That definitely happened today. \u00a0He came up to me weeping and said, &#8220;Don&#8217;t cry, mommy.&#8221; \u00a0He&#8217;s been saying that a lot lately. \u00a0He&#8217;s going to have to talk to his therapist when he&#8217;s older about how much his mother cried when he was little and how he wasted all his sympathy on her and he has none left.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Sorry for all the drama. \u00a0This blog won&#8217;t always be an onslaught of my emotional troubles!<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<!-- AddThis Advanced Settings generic via filter on the_content --><!-- AddThis Share Buttons generic via filter on the_content -->","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&nbsp; Our Little Mystery I do not and feel like I never will understand this baby. \u00a0Today was ridiculous. \u00a0Babies thrive on routine, right? 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